I Will Always Wonder
I wasn’t raised in an affectionate family. My dad wasn’t affectionate towards me growing up, and even today he’s not an affectionate person. I know he loves me, he shows it many other ways, but just not through physical touch. Not having a mom around didn’t help things either. Moms are traditionally known to be the more affectionate parent and that was clearly lacking in my childhood. Basically it all boils down to the fact that growing up, I was rarely touched in a way that wasn’t abusive at the hands of my grandfather. I often think back to the night I told my dad and step-mom about the abuse. After my grandparents left our house, my grandfather have just admitted that what I was accusing him of was true, my dad said I could go to bed. A little while later, he called me back up and asked me a couple questions to clarify some things I had said, and then I went back downstairs to my bedroom. I can remember feeling such a huge relief that the secret I had been keeping for the past seven