A Forever Mom
This blog has been churning in my heart for a couple weeks now, trying to work it's way into writing but my head keeps resisting. It's something I've written about before, more than once, and yet I can't seem to make peace with it. This issue brings out the worst in the way I talk to myself. I would never let another person say to me the things I say to myself when this issue is first and foremost at the front of my mind. Things like "Get over it! You're 33 for Pete's sake!" "No one cares!" "Move on already!" "No wonder people get tired of your issues!" "You're so stupid!" For real. These thoughts, and more, go through my head on a daily basis, especially when this issue rears its ugly head A-G-A-I-N! I would like to think I am making some progress, however, as this is the first time in awhile that I've anguished over such a simple statement: I just want a mom. A full-time, 24 hour a day, 365