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I Choose to Believe

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I wish I could put a happy twist into this post or try to be more upbeat and positive but the truth is, I'm sad. Really sad. My job at Trinity ends in about a month and that realization is, at times, almost more than I can bear. I hear other teachers counting down the days and up until a couple weeks ago, I was one of those same teachers, looking forward to the end of the school year. Now I find myself trying to hang on to each day, each moment with my 8 students, even with the one that is especially testing my patience, tempting me to just wring his little neck. I did really well the first few days of this week. I got to tell my students on Monday that I won't be back next year and the secret I had been carrying on my shoulders for the past several days was gone. However, a new load has planted itself on my shoulders and man, it is so heavy some days. The sadness and reality of my situation just seems to sit there and there is such weight and 'fullness' to it

All is Well? Are You Sure, God?

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I love the Christian group Phillips, Craig, and Dean (PCD) and have many of their albums. When I realized they had a new one out, I instantly downloaded it to my ipod and made myself a CD for my car. A couple of their songs really stood out to me but the one that is making the greatest impression right now is called, "All is Well." I'd like to think that though I don't read my Bible daily and my church attendance isn't all that regular (both of which I'm trying to improve) I am a person of faith. Generally speaking, it's not hard for me to believe that God has a plan for me and for His entire creation. As I've grown in my faith over the years, I've fretted less and less over things out of my control because I just have this peace that all will be well. The temptation to fret has been great the last 24 hours. Originally, the plan for my job was that next year would be my last teaching at Trinity Lutheran. By May of 2013, they would need to be me